time machine

"i didnt exactly know what happened, i wasnt even there, im not the one you hurt, but those memories still present, feels like you and her, still existing. but you said its over, (sigh).i just cant fully imagine, when i think about that love affair. damn! perfectly made. and i feel you are now living in hell.. shh.. listen to me. count 1,2,3 see about me, breath.......look in to my eye.... from today... i call you a LIAR!

i wanna run, i wanna cry, but who the hell am i? please don't answer, you might think the wrong one.. i was able to gather everything through the curiosity in my mind, you said many times you cared, i cared, i cared... until now that feeling is still existing and i cant believe all you said before, you told me, i cant no longer remember her face, her looks her sweetness, what ever.. no... it's shattered, but why? last cold night, you were able to discuss all the procedure, lucky she was, she's still remembered. and i hate it cause im getting insecure..

 a faint relationship because of that simple routine. in reality we really dont have problems, but you cant understand, i dont understand. you trust. i doubt, not us but the people around us, the world wants to play with us, and im afraid of being defeated, what if the destiny went to the wrong way? where the hell is the edge of glory? i can see you dying, i can see what will happened, i should be afraid starting today but why i cant understand how i feel???

 pls. just dont leave, i am not emotional im just really crazy.. i can be silly. quietly i will love you forever, what ever happened it doesnt matter.. i will smile with a blood on my face. i will steal all your confidence.. il take away your happiness, and build my own strategy, il buy clouds for you, il suspend rainy season without due, il take all the punishment of this world, il be a shadow with different  colors depends on your mood.

would you buy me, il truly be your lady, il bring out the worst in you.. il not let you feel a shining armor..   take me now, c'mon take everything.. walk on a single rope, use it as your bridge, imagine a the end ill be there singing with joy and happiness, and your wish please?? you will answer time machine to correct everything. and you successfully awaken me today.. i beg.. im sorry, i cant change my self immediately, i want you to love me. and il burn that city one, two and three!