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Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Multiple Rejections

i just remember.....

i just had an appointment today, i went to a place of judgement. i woke up early, fixed my self but forgot to pray..i brought all the necessary things that would be needed, checked my favorite bag and smile the sweetest way that i can.

ride a jeep... sigh... nervous? yes. but why? not enough confidence. but keep going.. no time for hesitations either..

in the destination when i arrived.. i was lost with confusions.. i look to the left, i look to the right.. i found my self shaking.. damn.. i hate this feeling..

someone asked me.. who are you and where you from?.. i answered, "dreams". he laugh and said: you are one.. and i just smiled.. i tried to hide the gravity feeling, i tried to make myself singing and while drown in the middle of happiness a voice interrupted: "hey! it's your time".


come inside the man with the bullet said.. with confidence i test my pride. a lady in red was waiting, she smiled and said talk to her she's on the other line. i speak lively, i try to deceived her once, and perfectly i got her soul. she said: wait for me, i want to talk with you personally"..

i waited for a minute. and finally she arrived. she asked me a lot of things, i answered with honesty and whole-kindheartedly. then she left me alone downstairs, she went upstairs.. she send a message through her maid. "she offered me different thing"..

i appreciated everything. i appreciated how she cared.. i love how it happened but still the pain that i was rejected. so i went home walking.. counting the cars, daydreaming.. suddenly a call come in.. answered it, another rejection begins..

finally im home.. another day is over.. i wont accept this limitations.. there's another rejection..
a few minutes later, phone beeps while watching.. answered it joyfully.. rejection accepted.
i tried to remain strong. i keep on smiling though it's painful.. but i cant take this anymore..

i cried because of multiple rejections.

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