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Thursday, October 11, 2012

hugot!

"nakakawala talaga ng tiwala sa sarili kung di mo magawa ang isang bagay kung san ka masaya"

minsan naisip ko dati okay lang kahit di mo gusto yung ginagawa mo importante nagkakapera ka, kumikita ka, at the end of the month may aasahan kang darating na pera sayo, yung tipong pag pinasok mo yung atm mo sa atm machine parang isang magic na pagkatapos mo pumindot ng ilang numbers may lalabas nalang bigla na pera! sarap sa pakiramdam. pagkatapos ng ganung sandali balik ka na naman sa normal na buhay mo, ibig kong sabihin ang araw-araw na ginagawa mo..

kelangan mong maging masipag kasi pag di ka pumasok wala kang kikitain sa isang araw. pano nalang kung may mga pinagkakagastusan ka, pano kung naguupa ka ng bahay, mahihilo ka pag dating ng panahon na wala ng lumalabas sa atm mo. di mo alam ngayon kung san ka huhugot ng dapat hugutin. kahit cgro yugyugin mo pa ang atm machine wala ng lalabas jan. nakakatrauma yung ganung pang yayari eh!

kaya kahit gano kahirap at kahit gano hindi mo kagusto yung ginagawa mo wala kang magagawa.. ganun ba yun?  kasi kelangan mo yun, pero kung di mo yung kelangan gawin, gagawin mo kaya  yun? napag isip isip ko mas masarap gawin yung bagay na gusto mo, kasi di ka mag sasawa, di ka tatamarin kahit hindi masyadong malaki yung kita basta masaya ka dun ka makakahugot ng lakas, at tiwala sa sarili mo na kaya mo labanan kahit anong mangyari. madami ka rin matututunan.


mahirap mag makaawa sa sarili mong gawin ang isang bagay na ayaw mo naman nang gawin, maraming maapektuhan, isa na roon ang kasiyahan mo. ang pagiging kuntento. ang tiwala mo sa sarili. kung san naniniwala akong maikli lang ang buhay.. maraming pwedeng mangyari sa loob ng isang minuto.. para saken ang importante masaya ka.. kasi sa langit di mo alam kung magagawa mo pa ang bagay na gusto mong gawin, masama pa nito di mo talaga alam kung sa langit ka nga ba mpupunta....



ikaw. anong pumipigil sayo para di gawin ang gusto mo? napag isip isip mo na ba kung kilala mo pa ang sarili mo? :)




Wednesday, October 10, 2012

time machine

"i didnt exactly know what happened, i wasnt even there, im not the one you hurt, but those memories still present, feels like you and her, still existing. but you said its over, (sigh).i just cant fully imagine, when i think about that love affair. damn! perfectly made. and i feel you are now living in hell.. shh.. listen to me. count 1,2,3 see about me, breath.......look in to my eye.... from today... i call you a LIAR!
i wanna run, i wanna cry, but who the hell am i? please don't answer, you might think the wrong one.. i was able to gather everything through the curiosity in my mind, you said many times you cared, i cared, i cared... until now that feeling is still existing and i cant believe all you said before, you told me, i cant no longer remember her face, her looks her sweetness, what ever.. no... it's shattered, but why? last cold night, you were able to discuss all the procedure, lucky she was, she's still remembered. and i hate it cause im getting insecure..
 a faint relationship because of that simple routine. in reality we really dont have problems, but you cant understand, i dont understand. you trust. i doubt, not us but the people around us, the world wants to play with us, and im afraid of being defeated, what if the destiny went to the wrong way? where the hell is the edge of glory? i can see you dying, i can see what will happened, i should be afraid starting today but why i cant understand how i feel???
 pls. just dont leave, i am not emotional im just really crazy.. i can be silly. quietly i will love you forever, what ever happened it doesnt matter.. i will smile with a blood on my face. i will steal all your confidence.. il take away your happiness, and build my own strategy, il buy clouds for you, il suspend rainy season without due, il take all the punishment of this world, il be a shadow with different  colors depends on your mood.
would you buy me, il truly be your lady, il bring out the worst in you.. il not let you feel a shining armor..   take me now, c'mon take everything.. walk on a single rope, use it as your bridge, imagine a the end ill be there singing with joy and happiness, and your wish please?? you will answer time machine to correct everything. and you successfully awaken me today.. i beg.. im sorry, i cant change my self immediately, i want you to love me. and il burn that city one, two and three!